YOU HAVE A GREEN LIGHT!
I used to think that God was like a giant micro-manager in the sky.
I wouldn't have verbalized it that way, but to be honest, that is a good description of my past theology. The idea that He was in control of every detail carried with it a sense of destiny in everything that took place. It also caused a lot of irresponsibility. I could simply say that healing must not always be God's will or His timing must be involved, etc. Rather than contending in faith, it justified acting content in the faith.
When I got a revelation of self-control, my life changed.
God designed us to live completely free. In His presence is utter freedom, not epic control!
It is not the goal of the being of Love to control, it is His goal to be equally yoked to a bride that stands eye to eye. She is to be self controlled, not cosmically controlled. If I am self controlled, then I am in charge of my decisions, with which I choose to submit to His Lordship and His mission of kingdom advancement.
Having said that, I now live my life with a "green light." I do not wake up each morning and wait on the Lord to tell me which sock to put on first. I move and I believe that as Proverbs says He will direct my steps.
I was greatly impacted by Acts 16:6, 7 "Paul and his companions traveled throughout the region of Phrygia and Galatia,having been kept by the Holy Spirit from preaching the word in the province of Asia. When they came to the border of Mysia, they tried to enter Bithynia, but the Spirit of Jesus would not allow them to."
I believe that Paul knew that he was so free and self controlled that he plowed forward with his mission and trusted that the Holy Spirit would redirect his paths as needed. Paul knew that he lived with a "green light", Jesus said "go", so Paul didn't live in any fear of going off course. Jesus redirected him as needed.